Unbearable Suffering: My Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain bloomed behind my one eye. Then came quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often start with severe pain around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing records suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a European physician who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring advisor guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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Kirk Williams
Kirk Williams

An avid hiker and nature writer with over a decade of experience exploring remote trails and sharing insights on sustainable outdoor practices.